How I reached my “Calmer Self.”
My frantic life kicked in when I started work as an Apprentice Chef at the Grosvenor House Hotel in Park Lane, London. Combining a manic 24/7 job with college studies and the wild social life that came with it, I found myself on a crazy, chaotic rollercoaster.
Gaining qualifications led to self employment and a move towards a sales career. Everything was going wonderfully but I was hooked on the adrenalin of it all. I was enjoying the time of my life but my body was telling a different story. A constant feeling of never having enough time led me to making poor lifestyle choices. I relied on the wrong kinds of food and alcohol in an attempt to wind down and energise myself. I pushed myself hard to be successful and make everyone happy – but I wasn’t making myself happy.
I was in a constant state of stress but at the same time it was thrilling and exhilarating. My weight was going up and my state of health was going down. My periods had stopped and I was constantly exhausted. These things combined led me to seek medical advice, and with PCOS (polycystic ovary syndrome) diagnosed, I found myself on the infertility conveyor belt.
As I was always interested in nutrition, I thought this was the best way to treat my hormone imbalance. I learnt all I could about how this impacts on the endocrine (hormone) system. I also developed a keen interest for alternative therapies. I had courses of homeopathy, aromatherapy, reflexology, and was pointed at counselling. I experimented with hypnotherapy and endless rounds of talking therapies which exposed childhood traumas I never knew I had, and also family patterns that explained my lack of self-esteem and inability to care for myself. I started countless diet and exercise routines and slowly realised I needed to heal my mind, not just my body.
I have had the joy of experiencing wonderful therapies such as CBT (cognitive behavioural therapy), NLP (neuro-linguistic programming) and EFT (emotional freedom techniques), but I still wasn’t getting to the heart of my problems. I decided to delve deeper and studied Tai Chi, QiGong, Yoga, Mindfulness Meditation, Buteyko and Reiki – training to a Level I and II attunement.
I was slowly getting there, and was very grateful to be learning so much. My desire is to share my knowledge and understanding and help others like I have been helped. Here I am, at 52, loving the learning and constant improvement of practising calmness everyday.
Let me show you how I can help if you’re struggling with depression, anxiety, or just the stresses and strains of everyday life.